Imagine going on a long journey by train. As you leave, the landscape looks familiar and you sit back to relax. For a while you read, then you doze off.
When you wake from your nap, you notice something odd—when you look out the window, things look different. The buildings have strange shapes and colors and the trees don’t look right. You think perhaps the train is traveling through an area with different architecture and plant life and it surprises you because you didn’t think you were going anywhere so different.
You think about asking the other passengers about where you are, but they don’t seem to be paying any attention to the changes. This makes you wonder if your mind is playing tricks on you. You decide to act as if everything is normal, but since it is not, you feel tense. When the attendant asks if you would like something to eat, you snap at her. You think the food might be as strange as the surroundings and you don’t want to take a chance.
You go back to reading your book for a while, and then you look up and out the window again—and everything looks strange and unfamiliar! You get very scared–This is not the right train! You need to get off right now, so you get up to leave the train. You don’t get far before the other passengers get in your way and take you back to your seat. You try explaining that you are on the wrong train, but they don’t seem to understand, they just say, ‘sit down’ and ‘it’s all right’ but you know it isn’t.
You start to look through your purse for the train ticket to show the attendant what is wrong, but you can’t find it. You take everything out of your purse and spread it around but there’s no ticket! Did someone take it?
Some of the passengers try to help you, but they are looking at you, with pity, and they are treating you like you are a baby. Someone tells you to take your medication, but you don’t remember having any prescriptions. Maybe they just want to give you something that will knock you out! You tell the woman you won’t take it and she gets mad and you get scared so you pretend to take the pills but hide them in your hand until she leaves and then you drop them on the floor.
You have to get away from here, so you head to the door again. You almost make it but just before you can open the door, hands pull you back. They march you back to your seat, yelling that you are acting reckless and that you need to sit still in your seat until the train stops.
You realize you will never make it home.
How sad you feel. You did not say goodbye to your family or your friends, they don’t know where you are. A few of the passengers try to sit with you and talk to you, but the things they say don’t make sense, especially when they say everything is okay, because it isn’t. You don’t’ feel like eating or talking. When they want you get up and do things you are too afraid of where they might take you, so you refuse to move. Some of them get angry then.
You have no choice now. You have to go along on the train no matter where it goes. You wish you had never gotten on this train, but you know you cannot go back.